pounding headaches and more such troubles...

i have a headache. due to a few things. more like two.

one : my darling of a nephew krtine decided to break my fav(only) purple glasses which resulted in me having to wear my sunglasses with a clip on, which has a curved lens.
two : woke up at 8.30 in the morn today after sleeping at 5 am to go play at the magic tourney (which i went 3-3 again) and am still awake now at 15 mins to 2.

am in a cyber cafe in hartamas killing time until the traffic jam that is outside now after the man u-arsenal match subsides... this cafe sucks ass. i can't see most of the graphics, i can't bold any of my words, and i do dearly want to, like the "sucks ass" above.

adding new links, and updated new ones. even though i'm wondering who this gama is...
frostie
may lin

will write more interesting stuff another day i guess... this headache is just killing me... later...
p/s : may lin, i did not get the email...

the death of blogs...

but fortunately a few has been resurrected. here they are...

tech
rudy
alysia
small ben
sean

relinked on my page. that has only may lin left who i have not gotten a new link to yet... later...

when i move you move...

just had this track playing on launch.com when i started writing...

managed to record the main vocals for legend of boo last night. even with my flu that was threatening to halt the proceedings by overwhelming me... my first take was actually good, and jd was like, "dude, you should record sick more often man". well that lasted for like one more verse. by verse three my vocals sounded tired and stretched... hung out for a while and then finished up the third verse. did my back ups and there i was with an almost completed song. my single. now should i get live bass sounds and scratches on it as well? gonna cost me more money though... but would make the song sound much better. would be good to have my song on the top ten with my brother's track on it as well. not to mention jimbo and moots...

these couple of days, i've been having random people tell me how talented i am and how they miss me in the industry. *lol* makes me smile and yet makes me believe in myself again. that i can do this. that what i did before was not thx to some idiots who pushed me up. that i put my 2 cents worth of work in to get us where we went. and to those people out there who have always believed in me and my abilities, i say thank you. i hope my single does not disappoint.

it's the monkeys i tell you. the monkeys!

sick season. everyone's sick. i'm getting better now(i hope). hope everyone gets better too...

lindsay lohan is sooooo hot. just managed to catch her on "confessions of a teenage drama queen". and now the video for rumours. she don't look 17. omfg!!

*and now we move on to a totally different topic, albeit a serious one* (done in a really serious deep bassy newscaster tone of voice)
i hate being ignored. i really hate being ignored. if i did something wrong, i wish that person would tell me. rather than just ignore me. this person in question being my housemate who's been ignoring me for the past week or so... or maybe it's just me. maybe she's just being anti social. yeah. i think that's it.

like my other really good friend who has gone missing. literally missing. can't find him no more. wish he's ok too...

a friend's blog brought up the fact that he's 26 and has made lotsa mistakes. i'm 27. my mistake count, staggering. but i think we are what our experiences make us... won't change that for anything. i won't be me today if i didn't make those mistakes...not so sure if it's good or bad for me... later...

kitty litter and all such troubles...

had a long chat with kitty just now. right after my last entry suddenly everyone wants to talk to me. let me list them out...

puppy - la la la ...
rudy - next tourney dude, no more langgar tiang...
small ben - crazy 0-4 bye drop dude...
tech - you know who, you know what...
may lin - thx for the photos and the jap vocals thingie...
lena - we will all persevere!
lynne - new and improved...
kitty - maturing too fast...
khad - mysterious yet friendly...
kugan - my fav malaysian producer at the current moment...
ash - random online fan/friend...

the main question is, do you really learn from your mistakes or do you just become numb from the pain of repeating it that it seems like no problem doing it all over again? later...

good girls go to heaven...

bad girls go everywhere! and i think that applies for guys as well...

a few of my friends lost their blogs recently, which is sad cos i enjoyed reading them. now they have to practically start all over again. and the fact that they charged 35 usd to allow any of the members access to the archives is bullsh*t...

i'm sick. fever, flu and a slight sore throat. damn. want to finish recording my single this tuesday. hope it goes away...

the show i was featuring in last saturday was fun. it was a total indian crowd, and very hard to please too. i just performed one song, vegam vivegam, but it was quite exciting, to be on stage again... hanging out with the guys from hyperkinetix so totally got me back to my roots, being an indian. not that i'm not indian but i prefer to refer myself as a malaysian indian.

random pleasant incident : one of the guy's gf was there with a friend (named jeeva) and she looked kinda left out of the conversation. so i struck up a conversation with her. she was eighteen and naive. but she was intelligent beyond her age... was nice...

after a while i really couldn't take it and i fell asleep in the car while the show went on. i slept till the end of the show... i had to drive from durian tunggal all the way back to my place while everyone slept. tiring...

random vip incident : i really wanted to sit down so i walked over to where they were serving food backstage. there was an unused chair and i asked the caterers' if i could sit down. now this is where this vip(he's and old indian man in those batik shirts all vip's wear) said "you can't sit here. this is where the artistes get their food." i was like oh well, ok... as i was walking away, this is what he did. he filled up his plate with food, took the chair and sat down at the same table that is serving the food. couldn't help smiling at this hypocritical bastard...

played in gpt brisbane just now and went 3-3. should've done better...

adrea didn't win the who will win ntv7 spokesmodel thing. she finished in the top 5 or something like that... she really wanted to win this thing... would've really advanced her career...

eminem's new single is just sick. but its fu*king catchy though... lol... guess who's back, back again, loco's back, tell a friend... later...

the world is my ashtray...

first of all, happy belated birthday to rudy & sean... seein u guys grow up has been quite interesting...

what's with the title? it's something me and tech say alot...

i'm good. work in one utama over the weekend was actually enjoyable... handled the baloon drop for jusco's 20th anniversary and i thought i did well. the fact that i came 2 and a half hour late on sunday (thank god there was no event until 2. i was suppposed to be there at 10 am) and my boss was like.. it's ok.. and i'm like but boss, why you so nice to me? aren't u supposed to be pissed? he just shrugged...
sunday was japan malaysia martial art festival. 4 hours of various martial arts from japan and malaysia. to me the most impressive one was the silambam...

shameless plugging... for those who know who she is, then i need not say more... if you don't know who she is, you can find her on my friendster list...

vote for adrea

by the way, i wonder if y'all noticed that i am in the final in who will win ntv7 tv spokes model, i really need your support and vote for me. all you have to do is type mod[space]adrea and send it to 32322. the finals are on the 16th of this month, so don't forget to vote for adrea.

i'm in joe's place right now... and the cat behind me is adorable... speaking of cats, i witnessed a murder in front of tech's place yesterday, and those with weak hearts and extreme fondness for kittens should skip the next paragraph...

this kitten was under a car when a pack of dogs started harrassing it. and what did it do? it got out from under the car and stood up to the dogs. beasts which were 5 times the kittens' size. lo and behold it was trapped. by the time me and tech got there to chase away the dogs, it was too late...
*mental note* the sight of this tiny kitten standing up to a pack of stray dogs was either the most bravest or the most stupidest thing i've ever seen in my life... somehow you wanted to skip this paragraph and yet you couldn't could you?

i'm quite content with my life now... it could be better but right now, it's manageable... can't wait to finish my single though...

clubbing has picked up a pace... zouk on thursdays and nouvo on saturdays... with really good company too i might add...

will be performing with hyperkinetix this saturday in thr ragga's concert in melaka. should be fun. haven't done show trips in a while... next week is back to work if everything goes well... bkt raja again. they seem to like me quite a lot there... in fact i get treated very well there too...

been in a quote mood lately...

"if the sun rises tommorow, it because of men of good will, and that is all that stands between us and the devil..."
kenny o'donnell [13 days]

"and for once it might be grand, to have someone understand, i want so much more than they've got meant..."
belle[beauty and the beast]

"if the mad ruled the earth, does that mean the sane are insane?"
sashi kumar balakrishnan

the old era is slowly coming to a finish... i'm about to kick off the next one... who's with me?

later...

illusions of grandeur...

is that what i potray to people? and yet what i am in reality is just a normal person who's done extraordinary things in life? i'm just me...

sometimes i wish this blog was a private diary... something that others don't read. so that i could just write anything here to get it off my chest. but i know some people that i plan to write about do read this. and i don't want to affect anything that is to happen... and being the martyr for all seasons, that just makes my mind up for me i guess...

sunday was wolf's birthday. wanted to make it for his party but i was working... i messaged him to say that and this was his reply
work is good. no worries
*smile*
wolf : a great guy, slightly flawed but a great guy none the less...

i went to the hospital last wednesday, and the lady told me to come earlier the next day so that i can see the ent specialist... (ent - ear nose throat i think)
got there at 10 in the morn and proceeded to the ent side... waited for like an hour or so to get to the doctor.
fyi : my throat at this moment was so swollen that i could barely talk, i was gagging and breathing was slightly difficult. added with the bonus of my fear of hospitals...

my doctor's name was dr sushil and he looked and talked like he was on speed. sorta like rudy on fast forward. he wanted to stick a tube down my nose to take a look at my throat, and when he saw the look on my face he decided not to. told me to come back in 2 weeks time and if my throat was still like this then he'd have to stick it in then... i said yes and nodded vigorously! he hooked me up with some drugs and off i went to have lunch, eat my medicine and go back to joe's place to sleep. i had very little sleep the night before you see... so puppy, i did go to the hospital just like i promised. thankfully my throat recovered enough so that i could work on friday without difficulty.

met an old friend lam, he came by when i was at work... good to see him again.

i might be in one utama old wing this weekend, for jusco as well. so if anyone misses me as much as i miss them, drop by and say hi... god knows how much i miss certain people... if they only knew...

btw to those who want to read more exciting stuff online rather than my boring ramblings, go to rudyism_101. i love the "the random show"... sleepy jedi rocks...

i knew i had more to say but i gotta go to the mamak now. i'm good. i'll persevere... don't worry bout me. surviving is a good word... later...