4.25.2005

note to self...

- get online more often...

- dta...

- more music less games...

why is it that everytime i decide to finally trust someone with my emotions, i get burned all over again? just when you think someone is different, out comes the idiot in em to show you, nope, they're just the same as all else...

i try, i try so hard to see the good in people, but why am i shown the bad instead?

random conversation:
me : why does this happen to me all the time?
ara : you should choose your friends carefully...
me : but i already do. i can count ppl i refer to as friends...
ara : then you move on and find new ones.
me : it hurts everytime... why can't i find ppl that won't throw my trust out the window?
ara : that's reality... you live with it...

well...

if life's a bitch, i wish i can fuck her... later...

word of the day...
trust

• noun
1 firm belief in the reliability, truth, ability, or strength of someone or something.
2 acceptance of the truth of a statement without evidence or investigation.
3 the state of being responsible for someone or something.
4 law an arrangement whereby a person (a trustee) is made the nominal owner of property to be held or used for the benefit of one or more others.
5 a body of trustees, or an organization or company managed by trustees.

• verb
1 have trust in.
2 (trust with) have the confidence to allow (someone) to have, use, or look after.
3 (trust to) commit (someone or something) to the safekeeping of.
4 (trust to) place reliance on (luck, fate, etc.).
5 have confidence; hope: i trust that you have enjoyed this book.

4.07.2005

you never cease to amaze me...

in reference to my readers that is...

10 comments? wow... seems like my readers are still about... even though i don't get like 35 comments per entry like some of my friends blogs does... no worries... as long as some of my friends know what i am up to and how things are in my life, it's good enough for me...

linking wolf's game shop website... go check out the forums... the inside jokes on this forum could fill a david letterman show for months...

"come to the shop and see me shit!"
- lita

"what!? that's so boring, i'd rather go fishing!"- ah dude

movies to watch :
- the butterfly effect - comes highly recommended...
- monster - charlize theron and cristina ricci at their best...

gotta go have lunch now... later...

word of the day...
fish

• noun (pl. same or fishes)
1 a limbless cold-blooded animal with a backbone, gills and fins, living wholly in water.
2 the flesh of fish as food.
3 informal a person who is strange in a specified way: he’s a cold fish.

• verb
1 catch fish with a net or hook and line.
2 (fish out) pull or take out of water or a receptacle.
3 grope or feel for something concealed.
4 (fish for) try subtly or deviously to obtain (a response or information).

— phrases all’s fish that comes to the net proverb you can or should take advantage of anything that comes your way. a big fish an important person. a big fish in a small pond a person who is important only within a small community. a fish out of water a person who feels out of place in their surroundings. have other (or bigger) fish to fry have more important matters to attend to.

4.05.2005

things i gotta do...

- shamelessly plug my myspace address...

find me on myspace and be my friend!

- make copies of my single to send it out to dj's and radio so that i get some airplay soon...

- read up more on magic and judge more often so i can make level 2 judge and actually deserve it...

- lose some weight that i have gained through my quiting smoking thing...

- actually go out with some friends that i have been promising to see for a while now...
end of list... more to come later...

played in the magic tourney last sunday and boy was it a disappointment... my pool of cards were so bad that i was crestfallen... managed to eek out a 2-4 result... that's rm 70 down the drain...

randomly won the wrestling tourney that i played in two weeks ago, using undertaker again and beating shaz's shane o mac in the final... interesting incident was when joe whom i played in the semis who had this whole plan on how to beat my deck, totally forgot and proceeded to die to my deck... *smile* and the win got me a raw intercontinental title belt... that makes it 3 tourney wins...

next up is the wrestling tourney again in wolf's game shop... i want that tt's of doom!! gotta go for dinner with a friend in kl now... later...

word of the day...
random

• adjective
1 made, done, or happening without method or conscious decision.
2 Statistics governed by or involving equal chances for each item.