9.12.2004

melancholy is a good word...

my last two entries could not be published on the day i wrote them so here it is... enjoy...

it's been 4 days since i have been away from the net... and the world moved on without me... let's list them out one by one...

1: rudy is now a promoter at the loft.
2: ahmad's is in the uk.
3: isla has a blog now.
4: lena's blog disappeared.
5: kitty seems to have gone missing again.
6: may lin's back from australia.
7: a bomb went off in jakarta.
8: azmin has went and came back from a family trip to port dickson.
9: i've apparently been rejected before even asking for anything.

well well... thats a long list...

if you're wondering where the hell i've been, the answer is that i've been working. plus i had a good friend from brunei down here staying with me. meaning he was my invisible twin. whatever i did, i had to think of him first. didn't mind it much though...

working as what you ask? as a dj cum mc. where you ask? at one utama. i will be there till this thursday actually. i started working last saturday and till this coming sunday, i'll still be working. just got paid today for the work done over the weekend. felt ultimately better... now i can pay my overdue rent.

went online and my spirits just dropped. oh well... the world waits for no one.

tech was bugging me the other day about finishing my single, since jimbo and i both started at the same time, but he finished his single and now is enjoying massive airplay while i'm still here... thx for pushing me dude.

i'm depressed now. don't know the exact reason why, but i think it's an amalgamation of a few things in my head and how the world looks now from my tinted view...

the price to pay for smoking has just increased. in fact it is exactly rm1.10 more expensive now! a pack of 20's for rm6.50! the horror!

no really! the horror!

i still feel sucky now. lame joke didn't work... but as always, watch me smile... *smile*

last but not least, on a much brighter note(if any note could be bright on a day like this), had a really long conversation on the phone with someone the other day. someone who loves anne of green gables(don't think she does as much as i do) as well as the vampire chronicles. talk about intelligent people hidden away in all corners of the world...

was just thinking that i wanted to talk to someone and yet no one was online. then puppy comes on. suddenly realized that i didn't want to talk to anyone. that's cos i know what they'll say. don't wish to hear what i already know.

and yet i still crave for affection...

i'm sorry i pushed you away puppy...

fuck. melancholy is definitely a good word... later...

*i am not perfect. i expect no one to be. i expect everyone to expect the same from me*
-sashi kumar balakrishnan-

2 Comments:

Blogger Alysia S. said...

*dances around in joy* it's about time you cut down on smokes anyway. *whack*

imagine if the malaysian government decided to make cigarettes cost the same as they do in australia. now thERE's a depressing thought for all you smokers.

11:13 am  
Blogger triona said...

10. u opened a hot pack. sheesh. :(

6:31 pm  

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