that sinking feeling...

no matter how strong a bridge is built, all it takes to bring it down is a simple flaw...

somehow i've reached a point in my life where i can't just simply do whatever i want. whatever i jump into requires lotsa thinking... like for instance, a month ago, i got pressured into going for a job interview (a proper*sic* job) and i did the whole shebang... assessment test and proper job interview. right before the last interview, i told my mom,

me : i'm gonna get this job but i don't think i wanna do this ma...
mom : why?
me : it's not what i want to do... i don't think i'lll be happy at all...
mom : well, do what u think is right...

of course when your mom says that, it's still leaves ones heart real heavy...

and yes i did get the job. the very next day in fact. it was an interview i was trying to fail yet i passed it anyway... and what did i do? told my mom that i got it but i won't take it cos i went for the interview due to pressure from her and my sister anyway... and i told my sister that i did not get the job...

do i regret this decision? right now?

no.

i don't want to live life regretting everything i did or being afraid of regretting what i "should've" done... or what i should not have done... life's too short to worry bout such events...

i figure if i say this enough times i'll believe it too...

you build something for your future and all it needs to fail is a simple human factor... they say to err is human, yet when it is the same error over and over again, you just can't believe the stupidity of it all... read kitty's blog and it just reaffirms what i believe...

no one truly learns from their mistake. they just learn how not to fall so hard as before...

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on another note, i'm currently working in sunway pyramid for the batman begins promo there at the concourse area. so if anyone's in the area from 12 to 9, drop by... i'll be there till this sunday...

on day one of working there, the tgv's marketing manager gives me a free ticket to go watch batman on opening night... damn i love my job!

i loved it! it felt like watching a really long movie trailer... rudy's right though. it needed a better soundtrack. if i'm not mistaken it was hans zimmer and another guy who did the music. ironically, i don't remember hearing even the trademark theme of batman that's been there since the first movie... otherwise, best movie of the year for me...

gotta go back now... sleep beckons. work tommorow... if anyone wants batman merchandise, please drop by... i'll try my best... later...

word of the day...
serendipity

• noun the occurrence and development of events by chance in a happy or beneficial way.